sadistic-baka

The sadness, lonelyness, and darkness feeling that I\'m all alone scared to talk, for they might not listen Deep inside I always cry but on the outside no one can tell, for I hide it so well That one thought that\'s all it took there I was-- ALL ALONE ready to go... \"where?\", I don\'t know I just want to leave and make my loved ones sad for all my pain is over with but their\'s has just begun. I love everyone so dear but all the pain has covered up the love Before I go, I say my last good-byes knowing it is the last, but they don\'t have a clue that it would be the last time they would see my smile, hear my laugh, or

I hate you. I love you. I don\'t know anymore You treat me so nice, like anybody else. Then you treat me like shit, like a worthless piece of crap. I like you. I dislike you. You treat me like nothing, you treat me like everything. I want you, I don\'t want you. I want to get away from you, run free and live my own life. Then again I can\'t go away, you mean the world to me. Without you I am nothing. With you I\'m also nothing. In other words... I am nothing. You\'re strong. I\'m weak. You push me around and I\'m afraid. When you put your hand in my cheek I don\'t know if you\'re going to kiss me or slap me. I care for you. I dispise

I took the pills to stop the pain- I drew the curtains to quiet the rain. I sat down on the couch to relax my feet- My story was sad hard and discrete. I sat for a moment then the room quickly spun- I knew at that time the end had begun. A single tear fell not anymore- Then with a loud crash my glass hit the floor. I lay down on the couch and shut my eyes tight- Then with my last breath whispered my final good-night.